But it's not as clever as butterflies...

Dustin is the funniest guy I know! He was doing this redneck face that he saw on .Leno, it was freakin hysterical. I almost peed

On a completely different topic, the inlaws are supposedly coming next weekend. That means, I HAVE TO CLEAN MY HOUSE!! I've gotten a good start though, the living room is relatively clean, and the kitchen clean. Now I just have to do the bathrooms (the bane of my housekeeping existence), the bedrooms, and the dining room. Augh!

quote of the day: "You will turn over many a futile new leaf till you learn we must all write on scratched-out pages." ~Mignon McLaughlin

It's 5am and I'm still awake...

Music I'm currently listening too: Alicia Keys "If I Ain't Got You"

I should be asleep, but instead I'm here...blogging about sleep. I wouldn't worry so about this if it wasn't for the fact that I've got class tomorrow and tennis. And I wouldn't be awake if it wasn't for the fact that my daughter decided to wake up for some reason at about 4a.m. Still, I'm in a surprisingly good mood. Go figure.
I really hope that we get out early tomorrow. I don't think I can stand more two hour long talks about the doppler effect and microwave radiation. Of course, that should be a good cure for my insomnia.

Lyrics for today:

Bloodhound Gang
"Bad Touch"

Ha-ha, well now, we call this the act of mating
But there are several other very important differences
Between human beings and animals that you should know about

I'd appreciate your input

Sweat baby, sweat baby, sex is a Texas drought
Me and you do the kind of stuff that only Prince would sing about
So put your hands down my pants and I'll bet you'll feel nuts
Yes I'm Siskel, yes I'm Ebert and you're getting two thumbs up
You've had enough of two-hand touch, you want it rough, you're out of bounds
I want you smothered, want you covered like my Waffle House hashbrowns
Coming quicker than Fed Ex, never reach an apex
Just like Coca-Cola stock you are inclined
To make me rise an hour early just like daylight savings time (do it now)

You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (do it again now)
You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (gettin' horny now)

Love, the kind you clean up with a mop and bucket
Like the lost catacombs of Egypt, only God knows where we stuck it
Hieroglyphics, let me be Pacific, I wanna be down in your South Seas
But I got this notion that the motion of your ocean
Means "Small Craft Advisory"
So if I capsize on your thighs high tide B-5 you sunk my battleship
Please turn me on, I'm Mr. Coffee with an automatic drip
So show me yours, I'll show you mine, "Tool Time"
You'll Lovelett just like Lyle
And then we'll do it doggy style so we can both watch "X-Files" (do it now)

You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (do it again now)
You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (gettin' horny now)

You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (do it again now)
You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (do it now)
You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (do it again now)
You and me, baby, ain't nothing but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel (gettin' horny now)

Everything I need to know I got from watching Seinfeld

I'm still a little dejected over the fact that we didn't see any fireworks on the 4th. I know it's been like 4 days and I should just get over it already, but damn it's just one dissapointment after the next. Oh well, I think I need to just let it go, you know? I don't want to sit here and be all depressed all of the time. I wish I could find away to ignore the bad things and focus only on the good things.
Although as I typed that, I conviently slammed my foot onto a tack. The sucker is sitting in the sole of my right foot, shoved as far as it can possibly go. It's going to suck when I pull this out. Well, here goes nothing.
Yeah, that really hurts. Surprisingly not bleeding that much though.
Ok, thinking happy thoughts...Joe actually did something today that surprised me. He bought his daughter a bunch of new clothes. Now I know, most people will sit there and think, "so what?". But for him that's HUGE. He usually doesn't really think about stuff for her, so it was a good day.
I took my second test in Astronomy today. I finished first again...well ahead of everyone else. That kind of makes me nervous. I will be totally mortified if I don't get an A on that test considering the fact that it was open book/open note and short answer questions not essay. It should have been a cake walk, but that doesn't explain why everyone else took at least a half hour longer to finish it than I did...hmmm.
So here I sit, and reflect. In the dark, waiting for the news to be finished so that I can watch Seinfeld reruns and drink a beer.

Lyrics that fit my mood today:

"I Think it's Going to Rain Today"
Claudine Longet
Broken windows and empty hallways
A pale dead moon in the sky streaked with gray
Human kindness is overflowing
And I think it's going to rain today

Scarecrows dressed in the latest styles
With frozen smiles to chase love away
Human kindness is overflowing
And I think it's going to rain today

Lonely, lonely
Tin can at my feet
Think I'll kick it down the street
That's the way to treat a friend

Bright before me the signs implore me
To help the needy and show them the way
Human kindness is overflowing
And I think it's going to rain today


Quote of the day:
If my devils are to leave me, I am afraid my angels will take flight as well. ~Rainer Maria Rilke

July 7th 2005

I was shocked and deeply saddened to hear about the terrorist attack on London's innocent citizens today. It sickens me to think that there are those out there who believe that attacking innocent people is justified. Only the weak attack groups of unarmed people who are just trying to get home or to work. Only those who are weak, affraid and maybe even ashamed attack children in their schools or commuters on buses. There is nothing about these actions that should make these terrorist feel proud. Bin Laden and his henchmen are cowards. They live like cowards, and they will die like cowards.
For the survivors and families of the victims as well as the citizens of England, you have our deepest condolences.

" You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do. "
Eleanor Roosevelt

Sometimes I just can't cope

I have been having one of those days were I just feel shitty for no damn reason. All day I've been painfully aware of the fact that the pieces of me don't fit. I don't even know who I am anymore. Maybe I'm having a crisis. Maybe I need to eat some ice cream and just go to bed. Or maybe I actually need to have some fun.
I'm terrified of boredom, and yet most of the time I'm bored.
Some days I just hate myself.

Forgiveness...Among other things

I've since forgiven Joe for his hurtful behavior the other day. I decided it didn't make much sense to continue to be mad at him for something that was done and over with. Don't expect this type of easy forgiveness to become a regular habit of mine. Anyways, I've given him a perfect opportunity to redeem himself. The 4th of July.
He told me that he requested to work midshift, so that he'd have the evening off. And as I understand it, Missy agreed. This gives him the perfect opportunity to take me and Nicole to the only fireworks show that we'll be able to get too. It should be great. The best fireworks display around, romantic beach setting, and an ice cream parlor that will be open late just to accommodate the crowd. Let's cross our fingers and hope that nothing messes this one up.
On an entirely different note, I just recently started my summer semester. The only class that I'm taking is Astronomy. Sucks, though, because I've already had my first test, and we only had two days of class. I don't even have my book yet (stupid bookstore being closed for inventory...grrrrrrrr). I'll be surprised if I got a better than 50% on that test. Pathetic, yes.
It wouldn't be so bad if the prof. wasn't so damn boring. He is so dull and drab. I mean Astronomy should be exciting. Topics like the origins of our universe, the fact that we very well may be made of stellar material, black holes, time travel, seeing millions of years in the past, galaxy formation, more mystical and fantastic ideas and theories than I can shake a stick at, and he makes it sound like just another piece of dry toast. Oh well, what can you do.